Weeks 9 & 10 Post Op Update - Lab results and realizations

I really have to get better about blogging.  It's weird... If I hit a stall - I feel like a failure and I don't actually want to write it down.

I've dropped only about 2 pounds or so.  Now that I have rolled into week 11 - I have dropped a few more - but I will wait to report that in a blog later this week.

I've been going out and trying to be more social.  I love sports - especially hockey.  I've been going to several games this season - even more so since the Houston Aeros have made it into the playoffs.  I say this - because it brings up an issue with distracted eating....

I was at the game - cheering my team on... eating grilled chicken.  And then it happened.  One.bite.too.much....

OOF... the pain in my chest was killing me.... I could barely think straight.  I stood up and slowly started my walk of shame to the restroom... knowing what was going to happen next.  I was so ashamed... I was on a date at the game to make matters worse.

I have got to get it together and start being more conscious when I eat.  I'm always thinking in the back of my mind - what damage I could be doing... am I stretching my pouch.  And then I get sad... but I don't eat for fear of getting sick again.

I also finally received my 8 week labs back from my surgeon.  Vitamin D levels are low... need to double up on those now.  Protein levels are low too... got to get those higher.  Need to take in 90 grams of protein a day versus just 60.

It's weird... sometimes I just feel guilty when I eat...even though what I am eating is good for me.  I hope I'm not developing some weird issue.  I guess I will need to talk with someone about that.

That.s all for now.... I have a hard 2 weeks ahead of me.  It's the 2 year anniversary of the death of a close friend of mine.  He was instrumental in me wanting to get healthy... I was on the right track  but I lost focus when I lost him.  I know he would be proud of me now.... but I just need to make it through that time.

Here's wishing all of you a Happy Easter and good luck on any challenges that come your way this week!